Well, Oops

Dearest You,

Forgive me reader, for I have lapsed,. It’s been 13 days since my last entry.

Any Catholics in the house!?

Nah, we’re not going to do that confessional crap. But I have missed writing and I do feel badly about lapsing! I missed my mindful routine.

Since September began, I began a short-term day gig! This has been great for my current limbo phase, makes me feel active and useful, is always great money, and is all-around a good decision. It doesn’t have anything to do with Motionally Availabily work, but I do like it.

I’ve been living with family for about 2 months now while I pause before a much bigger move. And in that time I’ve really hit the brakes on my hustle brain and horrifically reved up nervous system. The pause has been TOUGH, but also good. I’ve accessed a new kind frequency and pace that feels way more aligned with my needs. I’ve actually made time to read and write and restart some very important MA work. I’ve been really happy, overall. But now my routine is different…and I don’t want to reset back to my default hustle and race pace!

I think that the best thing I can do for myself is just take all of my needs and wants and think about achieving them over the course of a week…rather than a day. Yeah I’d love to be the person who wakes up at 5am, runs, eats a perfect breakfast, does creative work, goes to work-work, gets home and does the side hustle stuff, spends time with family and then drifts into self-care evening. But, it’s TOO MANY THINGS.

Instead, I’ll do, maybe, 2 of those thing each day. I’ll be gentle with myself. I’ll be realistic and leave room for a little dreaming about what would feel most aligned everyday.

Deep breathes.

With Love, From Me

D